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well I havent been on here for a while to blog but I have good reason to. I am in school all day and work nights. Ugh what a life, I absolutely feel like I have no time but I cant lose focus. I am proud of me …woot woot!!I am still eating healthy eventhough I have no time for nothing and I feel like I have been cheating on my gym so I went yesterday, I felt blessed.  I feel like a totally different person as opposed to a year ago, I love me more and I am 25 lbs lighter  as of today so I give myself more props. I guess I am realizing the reason I have felt so sad before is cause I hated myself. Now I love everything about me, I got myself a manicure and a pedicure last weekend. I deserve it. But I just want people to not lose focus and its hard, its not easy but to give in-not a option, we only are letting ourselves down ,yes people critisize like crazy but its normal, they just get madder when they see you feeling and looking way better than them.I had a lil run in like that today, I blew it off and moved on -the best part of all, my son sees me happy and I am becoming a better mother, I didnt think it was possible but it truly is. I have ways to go but I am happy with my progress. I have done fad diets and many diets that I bet no one heard of. but I can say I never felt as good as I do now cause I did it, not a pill, not a drink and I am actualy eating  alot =) Enjoy your weekend everybody!!

so I have been very sick these last few weeks, I am slowly getting better but I am just happy to be getting better over all, last week Fri I weighed in at 209 right…I was happy,heres the weird part, I weighed 215 at home, then 217 at the doctor..wtf???I was mad but its weird because I thought I lost weight, nothing changed,I was sick as ever and dozed off alot but I was just tired….but man this just made me mad but then again I am not because I dont know what to think,all my scales r off???Like I am mad but I guess I just to start over,I think its also that time of the month so I know that has stuff to do with it….ugh….someone please cheer me up =( …………

I am fiding that I am squeezing my workouts in sometimes kind of late but as long as I get them in…..but I would like to know does anyone know any good home workout dvd’s just in case I cant get out,like I hear alot abt Zumba,Core Rhythms and Turbo Jam I actually had fun doing a while back…any idea what would be good and tough for a home workout???

Okay I have been doing so awesome until like 3 days ago I was just overwhelmed by so much and it took such a toll on me ,I got so hungry it was crazy but it was because of stress,I knew it because I have been doing this for almost 2 months now and I have held my guns.So yesterday I just went to the gym instead of eating and I felt happy.I did the same thing this a.m,I have no idea whats stressing me but man,it needs to stop but I like what I see in the mirror.I see my collarbones again well not as much but put it this way,I couldnt see them before LOL….. so I am asking for people to just send me motivational comments and say dont give up cause its so easy to fall back into bad habits……=(

Last night I felt so lazy because I couldnt make it to the gym so before I went to bed,I got up at 11pm and went to the gym.I love the gym and I am learning to love pushing myself to do more,like sweating more is so awesome….I must give props to the girls who run on treadmills-you guys are like my goal LOL,I would soooo love to do that at a steady pace but I think I have to take baby steps and need the right kind of shoes for that.Like I am making that one of my goals,I would be so proud of me…I reached my 1st mini goal and cant wait to get to the next.Like any ideas on what burns more calories at the gym,elliptical or treadmill???Thanks!!!

I was at the gym yesterday and Saturday,we had just bad bad weather so the gym it was.I was watching TV on the treadmills as usual,I saw all these commercials for food,these portions are just getting HUGE and cheaper and that is just bad,mind you I was one of them people like wow that looks yummy,now that I see it,I am like OMG-thats just fat!!! Like diet food is expensive-fruit,veggies all the healthy stuff is expensive ,like their was a commercial for taco bell for a double quesadilla that is like huge but cheap,same thing for like chilis i think or applebees,free appetizer when you both order dinner,burker king has mini burgers.You pay less and get more food.For alot of people its great but if you are trying to eat healthy and avoid those things-its a distraction like when I go to restaurants I look for the healthy things,they have them like pushed the corner to the menu so you dont find them. I have a son who eats ALOT I mean ALOT and I know boys have a stronger metabolism as opposed to girls but I dont want my son to struggle with weight like I have.I want to make wise choices for me and him but sometimes wise doesnt go with convenient.I think media, well more like fast food chains try to put it our heads eat more for your buck,rather that eat less.Like I understand in our busy lives we need to find time to eat but I think if we had a longer lunch break we would enjoy our food and think more about what we eat rather than just shove everything you can down your throat in the half hour.Like portion control I realized is very important like I feel comfortably full and eat less,I am not like a sleepy Thanksgiving full,theres a huge difference.I am comfortable with how I am eating but I wish alot of restaurants and companies would accomodate people with healthier options but not raise the price.

I got home after work and as usual,cleaned and was with my son,I was watching tv on my exercise ball.I was watching Americas Best Dance Crew which I love,I was watching these people dance,I just got up and went to the gym,I think they have killer figures,I got really motivated watching them,eventhough I cant dance like them or look like them cause I have ways to go….I was so amp’d at the gym like I notice little changes here and there and I really feel I can do this.Like I have a goal in mind,I just need the weather to cooperate a bit more and I will be all set ,I love my 24 hour gym but I need fresh air every now and then,this Winter has been crucial but shoveling burns alot of calories too =)I hope so cause I have done alot of it.I am off this weekend and when I am home,I snack so much so I am going to try to get out and also work overtime because extra money doesnt hurt but being at home in a closed house bored makes me eat.Yikes!!!I am also trying to make my son eat healthier and be more active as well.People were tryin to feed me all kinds of junk yesterday but I didnt give in,Ok I had a brownie n a chicken strip but I drank enough water to feel remorse for eating it.It was delicious going down but depressing thinking where it was gona stay LOL….I hope everyone enjoys their weekend and want to thank everyone for such positive feedback,I hope everyone  has a very physical and productive weekend……

Okay I know we have all gone through it,when with friends or family,they offer you food and you pass…like clockwork someone says”are you on a diet again?”.I dont know why its anyones business if we choose to be on one or not.Like I have people in my life who know I am trying to lose weight and still try to feed me or tempt me with food.I need a support system not peer pressure.LOL.But seriously,we need to surround ourselves with motivating people who accept that we are trying to make ourselves better and really are trying.I have noticed when I am with friends,I will eat with them just so they dont assume Im on a diet because I dont want to be ridiculed or hear any negative comments.That is so lame of me.I shouldnt care what anyone says or thinks cause they are not struggling with their weight(well they are but dont care).I guess I was thinking about it last night and it bothered me how just some people are =(..but I am still happy and not stopping…=)

well i have said it before,i hate scales cause the numbers sometimes are discouraging.I was getting up to go to the gym yesterday and saw a ton of snow..I was kinda sad cause the weather threw me off…so i said to myself “weigh yourself”I hadnt done so since the 30 days I decided to do this.I lost 9lbs so I am psyched and super motivated.9lbs is not a lot but to me,it shows if I dedicate myself to doing it,I can =)..I told  a few people and got the usual dumb remarks but those are people who are just not motivated in life .I blew it off and was super happy over my 9lbs,mini goal.here I come =)

well ive been on my diet for a month and i feel alot better,its a slow progress but im actually doing it ALONE,no pills no gimmicks,its my hard work.well i was slacker this week from work so since i missed work like 4 times this week,so i would wake up extra early to go to my 24 hr gym cause no one is ever there and i have the gym all to myself,i absolutely loved it and was so proud of me for doing it and when i wore some clothes that were more fitted than usual,well i must say,it fit quite nice,well i still have alot to lose but im proud of me cause i can notice a difference,a small one but its only the beginning,im scared to step on a scale tho and get discouraged cause the #’s on a scale are so deceitful so ill let my clothes do the talking  for now =)